Do you hate the idea of Polygamy because you think it's immoral, unjust, wrong, or a terrible thing? Well, IT'S NOT ABOUT YOU!!! It is about them and their individual rights to think and feel how they want to based on their beliefs, morals, and values.

Want to know the difference between a pimp and a polygamist? Pimps don't LOVE their whores. Polygamists care for, love, and have a unified respect for one another in the family. How many normal relationships within society do that? Hmm? Many normal relationships fail whether in a dating or marriage aspect.

These people are being discriminated and some people who I have known say discrimination is wrong and yet they go and find one nick-picky fact about someone whether based on their religion, views, way of thinking, how they feel, what their political or orientation status is. So why be hypocritical when things become personal for you? Hmm? It's not your business what people do and it's not about you in the least. So why bother making it sound like it is all about you? Are you really that selfish and conceited? Don't let judgments and hypocrisy get in the way of your common sense.

Many polygamists follow their ways of living through religion. And the state says its illegal? Isn't church and state suppose to be separate? What gives the government the right to butt into someone's personal life? Marriage shouldn't be a governmental branch amongst society. The government has no right to control who marries, how many can marry each other, or base judgments on people who wish to marry. Same goes for gay marriage. The government has no control or right to authority to tell people that they can't be together. This is why I have lost faith in America. This is why I see America as nothing but hypocrites and nazi-controlling asses. People are hypocritical, people are liars, people are selfish, immoral cockroaches. Humanity as we know it is so involved and focused on mainstream society that they have lost sight of their own people. They ridicule, judge, bash, and even use hate crimes against one another. The government is controlling us as if we are its servants, not its people.

If you know me, I take a hard stand against any form of discrimination and I am open-minded to anything. I put my own personal beliefs aside for the sake others and not let my personal feelings get in the way of my judgment or my common sense. So with that said, why do most of my friends feel otherwise? Why are they hypocritical and why do they let selfish, personal morals and values get in the way of their friendships or their relationships? Many are blunt and tell others up front, "Please don't talk about that, I don't want to get into a long debate about this because it'll ruin our friendship." Avoiding will not keep the relationship, it will only prolong the issue. Things like these need to be talked about in order to gain respect, otherwise the friendship or relationship will never progress further.

"People in America are so riled up within creating their own personal perfect society, they have forgotten and disrespected the society they already have."

We are no better than Hitler when we have closed our minds and hearts to respecting our fellow man despite our differences and wind up discriminating each other for simply being who they are within their own hearts and minds. Most of Americans believe that the perfect society is conservative, Christian, white, and straight. And when anything against those qualities comes into place on the chess board, the fight begins and differences turn the ideal perfect society into a jumbled mess of disputes and debates. And then they believe that solving the matter is to persuade or convert people to their side rather than respecting them as fellow Americans. If we become close-minded, stubborn, and discriminate each other for being who we are then we have failed as Americans. If we fight against each other, then isn't it the same as our enemy making us fight amongst ourselves? Hasn't that always proven to be the downfall of a group or society, when they fight amongst themselves? So, blame yourself for the economy and the way it is, don't blame someone else. See the fault within yourself first before gaining any accusation towards someone else.

The Reagan years ended the Hippie, peace-loving generations and started to put liberal vs conservative, brainwashing each other in believing that the other is wrong and they themselves are right. We are not wrong, none of us are when it comes to our own attitudes, views, and beliefs. And we aren't right either. We simply believe what we believe through our morals, attitudes, and values. And that's fine, but that does not mean we can bash each other and be at each others throats. However, are our beliefs getting in the way of our common sense? Is it getting in the way of our kinship as friends and family? You bet!

People have become selfish wanting to do their own thing and letting other people do certain more higher duties for them. They are so selfish and close-minded that they don't even see the truth about their own country and yet they feel the need to take care of 3rd World countries before their own? Poverty is outrageous in American. Most Americans see those in poverty as the weaker of the bunch and that should just be exiled or worst exterminated and not doing a damn thing in order to help them. How many of you have given 5 dollars to that poor, one-legged man? Many would be shaking their heads right now. If we took care of our own people rather than discriminating them then maybe our economy wouldn't be as bad as it is. If the numbers in poverty are greater than those who are in better shape, then no wonder our country is in a downfall. We should be doing everything we can in order to get those in poverty some decent food, water, and shelter and eventually working our way up to getting them in the workforce. That way they can pay taxes like the rest of us and add to the economy. Same goes for our children who take a life of crime, turn to drugs, or fall through the cracks, make sure they are being well-provided for and put them to work. And those who are already in good shape who do nothing and simply tend to their own lives, get a job and add to the economy, don't complain that the economy is bad and then not agree to the point that it could be partially your fault. That's absurd!

Same goes for those who complain about their lives and then do nothing about it. If a friend can't drive and then expects her friend to drive her and her kids to work or school, then complains when her friend is unable to help her out, then why not get off your lazy ass and get a license, it's not that hard! Do things for yourself before burdening yourself on others. Simple as that!

We have disrespected our fellow man simply because we think differently. However, the key here is to simply respect and acknowledge those who think differently and be open-minded to their views while still staying true to yours. Make sure you don't bash them for the way they think, making them feel insecure and terrible about themselves, that will only tear them up inside. Simply respect the view, but don't let your own selfish beliefs get in the way of your friendship. I mean come on! Differences are inevitable so why think that if something stirs up within politics, religion, or simple personal views that that would get in the way of a good friendship. A strong friendship based on love, peace and respect would not allow that to happen.

Again, we are no better than Hitler when we have torn each other apart in ways of personal ideal views. We are ALL unAmerican when we have disrespected each other and fight amongst ourselves whether it's minor or not. Our pride as an American does not determine that we are American, it is our actions that make the difference. We may talk about being American and how proud we are to be one, but do we do anything for America that will better ourselves in the long run? No! Do we do something in order to solve a problem or do we complain about it and then get all riled up in the end? We don't solve it and yes we do complain about it! Why has America fallen through the cracks? It's because no one is thinking clearly and letting personal differences get in the way of their unity as a whole.

In conclusion, Respect is the key! If you respect me then I will respect you, if you don't bash me I won't bash you, if you acknowledge and support my ideas rather than turning them down then America will be better than it has been. Don't let personal stubbornness towards your own views and opinions get in the way of your common sense and most certainly, don't let it get in the way of your friendship with your neighbors, friends, and family!

"If Most of threw our hats over the wall, we wouldn't be sitting here in this mess, we'd be zooming over it in the flying car."

"What's that suppose to mean?"

"Throw our hats over the wall? It means being committed to doing something..."

Things I can't stand:

Obsessive Drinking
---Even though I wouldn't mind having Pina Coladas, Irish Cremes, or Appletini's, I really believe that those out there who enjoy alcohol a little too much, should really get off their high horse and cut back. Obsessive drinking is just one of those things I can't stand, even if it's casually.

Smoking
---I support a person's right to do whatever they want, including smoking, however, I hate the terrible habit smoking pushes on a person. I would never smoke myself and I am very picky when it comes to dating and I would rather not have my partner smoking, mainly because I can't stand the smell.

Drama
---Drama is one of those things I absolutely can't stand. I really believe that problems are best solved when they aren't problematic. Leave the issue alone and just move on from whatever it is that you had problems with. Just forgive and forget and stop being so spoiled rotten and pathetic. Drama is a wrinkle inducer, the more you start it, the more you are just stressing yourself. Those who start it and prolong it, most likely do it because they enjoy the drama, however, the best solution to the problem is to fix it by not finding the hard way to solve it.

Dating off the bat
---In my view, from the start of communication and meeting someone, I feel It takes over 2 months of getting to know the person before getting into a relationship and 2-4 years till marriage. Those people who feel the need to jump into a relationship off the bat, are only fooling themselves. They shouldn't be so quick to tie themselves down with someone who may not even be worth it. They should test the person out and then make precautions before getting too far ahead of themselves. People who jump the gun in dating, are desperate for a relationship to the point where they could care less who they wind up with, which makes them a whore, even if sex isn't involved. A whore is a lustful person who needs affection and companionship, not necessarily sex.

Repeating Oneself
---I hate repeating myself. When someone can't hear me or they don't understand what I am saying, I do not want to repeat myself. I can feel myself growing angry by the second when I have to repeat myself, especially louder than I did the first time. If you can't hear me, then that's your fault. And people who tell me things over and over when I already heard it the first time, gets to me. Don't bring up the same scenario over and over, it's not worth it.

Forcers
---People who force a relationship, argument or communication dispute really get to me. I am a Withdrawer who feels the need to get out of a conversation if things get to hasty and I am a Softer, meaning I do not like debate or arguments but more on the lines of just communicating in a nice way without all the drama. Those who force their views, their ideas, their words, or even an argument really need to just back off. I don't know why you are angry but I don't want to hear it, but seriously why are you angry in the first place?

Large Groups
---When there are too many people around me, my defensive nature breaks lose and it makes me just want to get away from people. When it comes to crowds or large groups, I tend to feel very claustrophobic. I hate feeling like I need to just push people away and get out of my bubble. I don't want to be rude, but if I have to shove and push my way out of there in order to breathe again, then so help me I will.

Not Raising your Hand
---Those impolite people who just shout out there answer all willy-nilly or interrupt the teacher or whoever else is talking really bugs me. No matter where I am, if someone is talking, I wait till they are through or raise my hand and be polite, not rude.

Drugs
---I have experienced drugs first hand concerning my brother and by seeing all the stress and drama my family and I have been put through because of his ignorant, misguided actions and addictions, I have to have some sort of growing pet-peeve to this. However, I won't go into some sob story about my life is crap because of him because it really isn't. If I could, I would make every drug in America illegal including anything out of a Hookah. Drugs are nasty, addictive dog shit that should never have been concocted.

Medical Drugs
---Okay, concerning my health and immunity system is very strong, I have always felt like medical drugs were a waste of time and money. Many people make the excuse that they have some sort of psychological drug that is better solved with some form of medication. OCD, ADHD and ADD not are not disorders, they are simply part of our personalities and attitudes. It may affect how you comprehend or perceive certain things, but that doesn't mean you are disabled because of them in certain fields. It simply means you weren't taught properly how to focus or how to lighten up and comprehend on your own. Most of it may be caused from an actual disorder like hyperactivity or the inability to settle down and to have a high probability to multitasking, but that doesn't mean you are disabled because of it. It means, you were not taught properly how to act or what attitude you should have when it comes to remaining focus.

Study: Kissing Boosts Women's Immunity

Updated: Wednesday, 04 Nov 2009, 5:48 PM CST
Published : Wednesday, 04 Nov 2009, 5:37 PM CST

By LILY FU

(MYFOX NATIONAL) - Ladies, kissing may be good for your health.

The Telegraph reports that kissing may have developed as a way for a woman to build immunity from a virus called cytomegalovirus, which is present in saliva. The virus can cause blindness and other defects in newborn babies if the mother contracts it during her pregnancy.

According to Dr. Colin Hendrie of the University of Leeds, who published a report in the journal Medical Hypotheses, kissing is a way for the man to pass the virus on to the woman to give her time to build an immunity to it before she gets pregnant and gives birth. Hendrie said kissing the same partner for six months offers the best protection.

"Female inoculation with a specific male's cytomegalovirus is most efficiently achieved through mouth-to-mouth contact and saliva exchange, particularly where the flow of saliva is from the male to the typically shorter female," Hendrie said.

Many theories have emerged as to why humans kiss in the first place. A widely accepted theory is that kissing was developed as a way for people to sniff out good mates. LiveScience writes that when our faces are together, our pheremones exchange biological information about whether two people will make strong, healthy offspring.


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How lame is this?

They are putting news out there for women and informing them that kissing obsessively is a great way to boost up immunity. Many women don't like swapping spit, especially with guys. Some would rather only kiss on the lips OR cheek, but apparently if they don't swap spit, their child will come out with birth defects? Possibility, sure. Likelihood, not really. Birth Defects are caused within the production cycle carrying genes from both parents and when one gives an "off" gene, that gene could be passed down as a defect whether diabetes, cancer, Down Syndrome, you name it! Sometimes, it's random. Everything in this world is random when you try to take a chance at something. That is why they call us healthy goers, lucky.

America today is ignorant. By saying this, many women who are ignorant and think that this mildly stated "theory" is actual to-the-bone facts will most likely go out there and kiss any guy they see or not care who they wind up with. Which is VERY ignorant and lacks common sense. They will wind up going into dating without getting to know the guy first and focus more on kissing and bed shaking rather than what really matters within relationships, communication. So, did the news just give possibilities of creating more young whores out there within the ignorant group of women? Possibly yes.

You may think just because I'm a lesbian and find it repulsive to kiss a guy is why I am so irritated at this. Possibly, that could be one of my pet-peeve switches turning on, but no, for the most part I just think this is insensible and stupid to relay this as "NEWS". I mean, the previous article on Tomatoes was better to understand and see as a possible fact than "kissing builds up immunity so go out there and kiss whatever guy in order to boost your immunity!" Lame man, just lame.

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Want to stay skinny? Eat a big fat juicy red tomato

By Rosemary Black
DAILY NEWS STAFF WRITER

Wednesday, November 4th 2009, 5:30 PM
A little boy indulges in a healthy tomato sandwich
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Tomatoes are tops when it comes to staying trim. The juicy red orbs act as a natural appetite suppressant, making it easy to resist the temptation to snack, according to London’s Daily Mail.

The findings came from research into the benefits of adding fruit and vegetables to white bread. When a group of normal weight women ate cream cheese sandwiches made with white bread or with bread enriched with carrots and tomatoes, they found the tomato bread the most satisfying, according to the Daily Mail.

“They were given the sandwiches in a random order, and we recorded how full they said they were,” Reading University researcher Dr. Julie Lovegrove told the Mail. “It was a small study, and we can’t yet say what the crucial tomato ingredient is, but the results were statistically significant.”

Now research will focus on whether consuming tomatoes changes the levels of ghrelin, an appetite-regulating hormone, in the body, according to the Daily Mail. Lower levels of ghrelin tend to make us feel full.

Regardless of what makes tomatoes stem appetite, they’re worth eating, says nutritionist and licensed nutrition coach Jackie Keller.

“They have fiber, which has a huge effect on satiety,” she says. “Studies show that people who are obese don’t sense when they are full, so tomatoes may somehow magically trigger the mind to do this.”

Though it’s not exactly prime season for tomatoes, there’s not a huge difference in the nutritional content of garden-fresh and supermarket tomatoes, Keller says.

“You get the same benefits as far as fiber and nutrients, but what you don’t get is the texture when you serve supermarket tomatoes,” she says. “Another option is to eat your tomatoes in cooked form.”

Cooked tomatoes tend to have more lycopene than raw ones, she notes. And lycopene, according to the Daily Mail, reportedly offers a host of health benefits, from warding off cancer to increasing fertility. It may also help combat prostate cancer, says the paper. Whether they actually are as magical as some nutrition experts believe, tomatoes are a very good source of vitamin C, which helps the body to absorb iron, notes the Mail.

How to eat tomatoes, besides in a BLT? Try stuffing them, baking them or dehydrating them to use as tomato chips, Keller suggests.

“They’re very versatile,” she explains. “You can cut them in slices, bread them with a little cornmeal and pan sauté them.”


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This sounds reasonable and more accurate as being a news-based fact. I could totally use this against Monica now.

"I know a way to trim your tummy!"

"How?"

"EAT TOMATOES!"

"EWWWWWW!"


She hates them and I absolutely love them! So, yes I am going to tell her this. xD

Also, I hope some of other friends who doesn't like tomatoes, will at least take this little article into consideration and be open-minded to trying them at least! I hate it when people complain about hating something when they don't give it a shot first. I know taste buds change and the things I use to hate, I am okay with now and actually adore eating. I have not cared as much what vegetables or fruits I eat but there are still some out there I won't. And yes I like broccoli, spinach, mushrooms, tomatoes, and squash! So what!?

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I was at sonic and I paid for 2 sonic large drinks which came out to 3.88 and I was suppose to get 16.12 back. Well I gave the 12 cents to the boy and yet he gave me back not only my 16 dollars in change, but the 20 I gave him to pay for my drinks as well. I called them back and told him he gave me my 20 back along with the change and of course he said thank you because later on it would come out of his pay. So yes I was honest to make sure I wasn't swindling the people whether purposely or accidentally.

Same happened to me when I was depositing my check and asked for 20 dollars back out of my paycheck which was probably a little over 100 dollars. Well the change they gave me back which was supposedly suppose to be a 20, was actually a 100. So I called them them and told them the mistake and exchanged the mistaken 100 dollar bill for my 20 I asked for. So, hah! I am not a crook!xD Lol

Have you ever felt so sweaty from wearing a costume that was so uncomfortable and out of your original style of clothes that you just want to die from? Take that including 6 hours of extreme non-stop fun, laughter, and excitement and you have the party I just went to at Drew's.

There was a lot more people than expected from random to omg I never expected to see her sort of thing! I saw this girl that I find obnoxious from my 2D design class there. Drew accidentally invited her thinking she was a different Sarah than his sister's friend. And other than the usuals of Chris, Mark, Matt, Danny, Me, Drew, Monica and Some other guys I don't really know names from. We had maybe over 20 people there! I was just glad to see a lot of people there and my cookies, totally saved the day! We had like cold pizza before we got more and then my cookies were totally a hit and gone by the time I left around 2 in the morning. Yeah, it was just that amazing!

Mark had the best costume ever! Even if we didn't have the costume contest like we planned, everyone had to agree that he was the winner, by far! He came as a sexy leapord cat woman. Yes, you heard me correct, he was hairy but sexy at the same time. It was great and hilarious! He and Chris were going at it as usual with both fights and love! I took pictures, it's great and I just love everything we did, said, and had a blast with! Mark was amazing and Chris was awesome and together they were just amaziawesome! xD that totally failed!

We played rock band and guitar hero, I was on beginner of guitar hero which was basically just strumming, no notes and I got 95 percent of that. First time too! We also played some fighting games, some card games like "Would you rather?" and we did random shit, kinky shit, funny ass shit, and we nearly had a strip pole in the house that someone actually had in their car. It almost happened!

Other than pictures, I took some videos that I may post on myspace only, no youtube because pfft, youtube fails for this shit! Except some girl who randomly came from Matt's group took a picture of Mark doing a sexy, porn star dance over one guy sleeping then yelled FIRE! It was hilarious!!! <3 I am so glad I got up from my drawing and saw it. xD Lol

I totally beat Chris, the master of gaming at this fighting game as this one chick then I beat Bonnie but then she beat me. So, yeah my random pushing of buttons so pwns you! xD Lol <3

I could totally go into detail but it's late, I am tired, achy and beat from tonight! But I can try to name everyone who was there.

Drew
Me
Mark
Chris
Monica
Scott
Adam
Liz
Sarah
Sarah2
Johnny
Milton
Matt
Robert
Danny
Some guy I did not know
His girlfriend who was the Little Red Riding Hood with a pink wig
Bonnie
Some other guy I think...

And I think that was it. If there was more, I am sorry but I guess you just weren't in my circle. Oh wait there was Kittay who I heard got pregnant already and her boyfriend Ty? I think that was his name... But yeah, they were like unmentionables because they just stayed in one room and we never saw them or knew that they left. xD Lol

So yeah it was an awesome, fun night and I was so glad I got to see everyone and get to hang out with a lot of peeps, have a blast, laugh my ass off, rofl nearly dying of laughter here. It was great! Best night ever! I wish it never end. It was just too great for words and far better than anything I have ever done.

So yeah that's it! I will post images and videos on facebook, screw myspace! I lied! It isn't worthy! Having these private and away from the public view is a lot better!

Yay! Go Pussy Mark and Mohawk Chris! <3 Love you all~! <3

((Ps: I got new shoes that I needed desperately and they went along with my costume, new shirts, and poor Liz hurt her ankle. She was literally crying her eyes out and sounding so bad and in pain, limping and omg I hope she is okay! <3))

So, I know I just posted a journal 2 hours ago, but I kind of wanted to talk a little more about this one particular thing.

Yes, I am going to be greedy for 2 minutes and talk about some of the things I would like to acquire for X-mas or some of the things I want that I wish I had for certain things.

One is a laptop mini, preferably pink. I know that reveals a lot of the girl in me but I just don't like any of the other colors they make the mini laptops with. The purple is too dark and so is the blue, I would much rather have a brighter color in both. I know I have asked my dad thousands of times for a laptop or laptop mini and he keeps thinking that I don't need it, that I shouldn't have one because he thinks it's just something more I'll use constantly like I do with this computer and neglect other things because I am so caught up with the laptop. Yes, half of that is true but I have told him I want a laptop for more school-related purposes like typing notes rather than writing them because I am a faster typist than I am a writer by hand. I mean come on, maybe not on an average or daily basis I don't but I have typed 119 wpm before with no mistakes in class once and I mean if that's not impressive, then I don't know what else I can give other than that as proof that typing notes in class would be better for me and save me on hand cramps. I also would be able to upload my homework or have my homework in class everyday if it has been typed. I don't have to use the school computers unless I need to print something off so yes a laptop would greatly benefit me within schoolwork and school itself. I am not going to be one of those idiots in class who browses porn or their favorite sites that they go to on a daily basis when it comes to school. I'll do that outside of class if I desperately want to check messages or whatever.

Second, I would really like a webcam if not already built into the laptop itself. I also would like a headset because I don't know why yet but I feel like doing vlogs. Again, I don't know why. I just really feel like expressing myself on youtube and about random days I feel like posting something. I wouldn't video tape anything vulgar and risque and it be strictly professional and/or goofy if I felt like it. I will also not let my parents know I am doing it because I know their feelings about me even remotely displaying myself or a photo of me online because they are overprotective and always seeing the worst when it comes to public things. I even told my dad earlier today that MySpace and FaceBook have a private setting. You can choose who you want to view your pages such as friends and if someone bugs you you can ignore them or blocked them. The other best feature is, you can choose what you want posted from them and you can choose whether or not to accept their friend request if you you think they are worthy or decent enough to be added back. If you feel like they will do nothing but annoy you or turn you down, then you can simply not add them back, or delete them later if they turn out to be flakes or only after that one thing.

So, right now that's all I can think of that I would like for X-mas that I can possibly think that would be beneficial to me in the long run or something I simply just want to try. I feel like being a socialite and able to express some truth towards me or just basically show everything what I am like behind a camera, and hopefully I am not going to be so camera shy or go blank. I am honestly using this to get rid of my camera shyness and hopefully help myself not be so nervous when talking to an audience or being video taped because honestly, I have never felt the need to be in Drew's little films and I know one of these days he's going to ask me to be an actress and I will be like, ehh...I dunno...I hate being in front of a camera and I dunno if I can act. So it would be nice to get over that and simply be bold and confident that what I do on camera does not in truth destroy me as a person or I won't die from it. So, with all that said, that's just a random update you guys, hopefully the cards are in my favor! <3

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I have posted much lately, been busy with school, studying, and a bunch more variety of things. I posted a DA journal about some things like school, family, art, and fun things going on but I want to talk a little about what's been going on in certain turn of events, I should say.

Well, I found this one girl from my art class on MySpace. Thanks to the teacher saying her name over and over including last name, I was able to find her easily just by using that as my reference. I have talked to her before and she's very nice and very sweet but I didn't know much about her to begin with. So, when I just happened to find her and she added me back as a friend, I started to browse her photo gallery and she had some of her artwork on there.

Personally, I don't think posting artwork on MySpace is a good idea because people can steal it because MySpace isn't responsible for any work of yours being stolen or thieved by others because it is your fault for posting them in the first place. Sometimes the people you befriend who can view your photos are not always as trustworthy as you claim them as. And I know some of my artwork is on someone's website when she didn't have my permission in the first place to post them at all. But whatever, she's an idiot who can't get over issues and really needs to move on already and stop clinging to grudges.

Well, anyways, I took a shot in the dark and used this girl from my class' penname she signed her work with and then just happened to find her on DA. I really love her artwork, her cartoon style and her chibies. She's a great artist and an even better cartoonist! I really like her and art alot and it's glad that even if I know little about her or haven't truly gotten to know her as a friend, I would consider her one of my art buddies that I socialize with and maybe if I open up to her more and cling to her more as that person I really like to spend time with, then she can be considered a friend. Anyways, I was happy to pawn on her and I'm really glad I did. I love her work, it's amazing! My kind of work I'd swoon over. xD Lol

So, I need a new sketchbook. My inspiration is dropping like flies. I have little and little effort to draw lately and I just hate it. I want to draw more, I want to preoccupy myself and entertain myself but I just can't seem to bring myself to either want to draw or create something, I'll be proud of. So, I need something to inspire me or get my self-esteem back up so I would want to draw and be active again in art. I guess this last project in art: finger painting with household liquids and creating dots with that I absolutely hated to death really brought my mood for art down making me dislike a lot of art including my own or kept me from really trying. Plus with studies and schoolwork I haven't had time. However, I am not letting it get to me or bring me down. I'll just make up for it and I'll try my best to get myself back in the game with even better images than I have done before. =3

Well, that's a more detailed synopsis of my life right now. Hope you guys have a fun Halloween, I may not post another journal in a while, dunno depends on my mood. I have another journal right now that I update whenever my rants get to me but whatever. xD

So, I spent the entire day with Monica today. It was a lot of fun. =3 I also got in my fuzzy legwarmers and my mom said they looked like Cookie Monster legs. xD Lol <3 That made my day because I did not think for a second that she would actually like them, I was worried she wouldn't and get mad at me for buying them, that's why I never said anything but took the plunge to actually show her, and yes I did take a deep breath.

So, honestly, I want to take some photoshoots with them and I told Monica even some kinky nude pics would be fine with me because I have an awesome pose and idea in mind to use them with. =3 So if any of you are willing to create some non-serious, fun, dorky, and fine I will even shoot out there dramatic and sexy pics with me and my camera, then let me know because I am really looking forward to it.

Don't ask me why I am in this phase, but even though I am drawing, I can just get more fun things done with a camera than I can with my pencil and pens. I also want to expirement and dabble in new things and try new things at the same time. Plus, the many great photos I have posted really have inspired me to just wing it and love it! <3

I told Caitlin yesterday that I tend to do a lot better artistically when I just wing it and not care what it becomes. That is why a lot of my 2D Design work is a lot better and more creative and artistically professional than my normal "whatever the fuck I want to draw" art. xD Lol <3 So, even though she adored and loved my 2D work, I just can't do that in a sketchbook that I use everyday for normal art. And Bonnie doesn't understand that Design is a form of art, that you can make top dollar with nothing but stencils and rulers with some coloring and hard effort at it. We believe she can dabble into that and be a great artist if she wants to, but she just doesn't understand how it's art because she is so use to anime and drawing as the main art in her life, that she just can't see the possibilities of abstract or design based work. However, I know if she tries at it, she can make something great out of it! I honestly want to see what she can do with it and maybe if she she needs help artistically to expand her eye across the page and help her perspective and view of how it looks, she can always ask Caitlin or I. Art is about adapting to different styles and mediums and progressing with it within your own originality and creativity. That's art. If you have an open-mind and passionate heart for it, then you are indeed and artist true and true!

So, I am looking forward to tonight's storm and I have to shut down the computer for good tonight considering how it's pretty severe. I am drawing Caitlin as a Zombie in an awesome squatting pose and Bonnie as a sexy Vampire in kinky, flirty pose. xD I like how they are turning out. =3

Well that's it. I am actually going to keep this public because I know Bonnie has an LJ and yet not added to my friendlist right now and I just don't really feel like making it private. ^^; LATER GUYS~! <3

Big Five Personality Questionnaire

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Trait:
Openness
81%
Conscientiousness
44%
Extraversion
50%
Agreeableness
44%
Neuroticism
38%

Last updated: 16 August 2009 (Update Now)


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Trait Explanations

In order to interpret your raw trait scores, they were compared to the first 350,000 people to complete the full MyPersonality Big Five questionnaire. This allows the way that you described yourself to be put in the context of how other people respond to the questionnaire. You should remember that there are no fundamentally good or bad personalities, as each trait description has potential advantages and disadvantages. To help you reflect on these, you have also been given some questions which ask you to consider the implications of your trait descriptions. Other people viewing your personality profile will not be able to see these.

Openness

This trait refers to the extent to which you prefer novelty versus convention. Approximately 72.6% of respondents have a lower openness raw percentage than yours. From the way you answered the questions, you seem to describe yourself as someone who is intellectually curious and appreciative of what you consider beautiful, no matter what others think. You might say that your imagination is vivid and makes you more creative than many others.

Reflective question: How important are your emotions in determining how you behave?

Conscientiousness

This trait refers to the extent to which you prefer an organized, or a flexible, approach in life. Approximately 16% of respondents have a lower conscientiousness raw percentage than yours. From the way you answered the questions, you seem to describe yourself as someone who is impulsive and whimsical, and fine with it! From your responses it appears that you would say that sometimes decisions need to be made quickly, and that you make them quicker than most! You would say you are zany, colorful, and just generally great fun to be with... as long as someone isn't relying on you to get some work done.

Reflective question: How do you feel when you are working with someone who is very organized?

Extroversion

This trait refers to the extent to which you enjoy company, and seek excitement and stimulation. Approximately 24.2% of respondents have a lower extroversion raw percentage than yours. From the way you answered the questions, you seem to describe yourself as someone who prefers low-key social occasions, with a few close friends. You might say that it's not that you are afraid of large parties; they're just not that fun for you.

Reflective question: How do you like to spend your spare time?

Agreeableness

This trait refers to the way you express your opinions and manage relationships. Approximately 8% of respondents have a lower agreeableness raw percentage than yours. From the way you answered the questions, you seem to describe yourself as someone who is willing to make difficult decisions when necessary, and will point out when something is wrong no matter what other people might feel. Your responses suggest that you would say that you can be tough and uncompromising.

Reflective question: When others are experiencing problems, what do you do?

Neuroticism (Emotional stability)

This trait refers to the way you cope with, and respond to, life's demands. Approximately 38.2% of respondents have a lower neuroticism raw percentage than yours. From the way you answered the questions, you seem to describe yourself as someone who is calm and emotionally stable. Based on your responses, you come across as someone who is rarely bothered by things, and when they do get you down the feeling does not persist for very long.

Reflective question: When do your emotions (or lack of emotions) get in the way of good decision making?

I DID NOT LEAVE!

I SET EVERYTHING TO PRIVATE WHETHER TO FRIENDS OR MY EYES ONLY!

IF YOU WANT TO STALK ME, BE MY FRIEND! FRIENDLY STALKERS ARE THE BEST!

THIS IS THE ONLY JOURNAL TO BE PUBLIC AND EVERYTHING BEFORE AND AFTER ARE PRIVATE!!

TAKE THAT BITCH~! <3